Saturday, January 03, 2015

The Gift of Sight

About a year ago I had my first cataract surgery.  My “bad” eye had a fast-growing cataract that needed to be removed soon, according to the doctor.  I have lazy eye so the vision in this eye is not correctable but the glare caused by the cataract was affecting my other eye.  The surgery went well and the glare was gone.

By fall the cataract in my good eye began to seriously affect my vision.  It was the worst at night while dealing with the glare of oncoming headlights while driving.  However, I also noticed a difference while reading.  Words were often blurry.  I’d clean my glasses and realize that they were not the problem.  This is the only eye with which I can read.  I struggled for a while before returning to my eye doctor.  He confirmed that the cataract had grown and that my vision had deteriorated.

The doctor offered a new eyeglass prescription if I wanted to hold off a while or he could do cataract surgery.  He stated that the success rate is 98-99% and I replied that this was my good eye—he nodded.  I was rather nervous since this is really the only eye I use.  What if there was a problem?  However, I was struggling enough with my vision that I didn't want to wait.  Surgery was scheduled.

Early on a December morning my husband drove me to the surgery clinic.  I was led back to a line of beds with curtains in between.  I received a warm blanket and my friendly nurse began administering drops to dilate and numb my eye.  The people in the beds on either side of me were experiencing the same thing.  My doctor came in to check on me and then later returned to get me, pushing the bed to the surgery room himself.  A nurse anesthesiologist put the happy drug into my IV and soon I was feeling no pain.  Within 10 minutes the surgery was over and I was sitting in a small room with another patient.  Our husbands were ushered in.  The nurse gave us juice and a snack while we listened to our post-op instructions.

Before long I was walking out the door hanging on to my husband because I was a bit wobbly and couldn't see well.  A clear piece of plastic was taped over my eye.  I was instructed to wear it for several hours and also every night at bedtime for one week.  Once home I headed for the recliner and spent most of the day there.  For me, relaxing involves reading so this was a bit of a challenge.  My eye stayed dilated for a couple days so reading was impossible.  The TV was blurry.  The only discomfort I experienced was from one of eye drops which I needed to apply four times a day.

By the next day I was able to do a little housecleaning, some baking, and host an evening Christmas party for my women’s group.  I had one day and one week post-op appointments.  Everything looks good.  I graduated to drops twice a day.

The fog and glare are gone.  The amazing thing is that they can put your prescription into your new lens.  (Cataract surgery involves removing your lens with the cataract and implanting an artificial one.)  I no longer need prescription glasses.  Once my eye is totally healed and the inflammation is gone—which takes about a month—the vision in my eye will be about 20/20.  I can use the computer without glasses.  All I need are drug store reading glasses.  I’m learning to deal with that now.  I began with dollar store reading glasses since my vision is still adjusting—they broke within a couple of weeks.  I’m on pair #2 which has a rather fun design on the frames.  Where do I keep them?  On my head?  In my purse?  Multiples everywhere?  I’m working on this.

I marvel at what I can see again even though my eyes are still healing.  I had a couple days of very poor vision and an inability to read.  I depend on my sight for nearly everything I do.  I am grateful for the gift of sight I received when I was born and now my renewed vision from my very skilled doctor.  What a gift!





Thursday, January 01, 2015

A New Year

It’s the first day of a brand new year and while I tend to believe that New Year’s Day is a great time to assess one’s direction in life, I’m wondering if I’m in the right place to do it.  I’m sitting on my mother-in-law’s screened patio in Florida; the temperature is around 74 degrees.  Meanwhile, the temperature at our home in Idaho is around 17 degrees.  We have been away from home for almost 2 weeks; we spent Christmas with our daughters in North Carolina.  For these reasons I feel rather removed from my life in Idaho.  Perhaps that can be helpful in looking ahead.

We spent time in the middle of the lives of our twenty-something daughters and are now with relatives in their nineties—such different perspectives on life.  Our daughters are at the beginning of their adult lives and our elderly relatives, while at the end of their lives, are not done living.  What’s important in life?  The way we view life changes over time.  Our daughters are always in a hurry—there’s an impatience to get where they are going.  The elders have all the time in the world—and yet they don’t.  And what about me?

I find it hard to consider myself a senior citizen although I am over sixty or to call myself retired even though I am not working.  I have never been good about planning for the future but perhaps it is time to do it.  I know I won’t live forever.

We can get by on my husband’s pension but extra money would be helpful.  However, if I work that would limit travel and volunteer activities.  My husband is in his seventies and interested in doing some traveling.  We can’t wait until he’s 80.  I find fulfillment in my community activities.  What is important?

My mother-in-law questioned why I am in a hurry to go home.  (My husband is staying a week longer.)  She suggested that whatever responsibilities I have, others can do them.  On the other hand, in a recent conversation with a retired pastor, I told him that I have considered job hunting but he insisted that what I’m doing is important.  I feel it is, too.

I am grateful to have choices.  These life decisions hinge on who we are and what matters most in our lives.  For some people, retirement means travel, family, and new activities—they do what makes them happy.  What matters most to me?  Family and friends are important to me.  I look forward to traveling to experience new places.  I have hobbies I enjoy.  However, I know that I need more.

My faith dictates how I live.  For my life to have meaning, I need to do my best to bring light, love, and justice into this world.  How can I not?  I got arrested for civil disobedience because I believe discrimination is wrong.  I started a coalition to work on this with like-minded people of faith.  I can’t stop now.  There is more to do.  I want to make a difference in the world around me.  It’s what God calls me to do.

So, what will I do in 2015?  I see the year as an adventure stretching out before me.