Saturday, November 19, 2016

Recovering

Two weeks ago today I returned home from the hospital after undergoing major surgery.  I was glad to be able to sleep in my own bed.  It’s not that I didn’t like the hospital bed with all of its different positions but it was somewhat difficult to figure out how to do it while heavily drugged.  A side sleeper, I couldn’t quite figure out how to move with an IV and several other things attached to me.

Our recliner has become my spot, perfect for reading, napping, and watching a little TV.  Our black cat, Juno, is happy about this.  Wherever she is, within a few minutes of the time I sit down she is in my lap.  Of course, this makes getting out of the chair difficult.

My doctor told me that recovery time would be 6 weeks so I would have to take it easy.  No driving for 2 weeks.  No lifting, dancing, or traveling for 6 weeks.  No exercise except walking.  She said that I could go out if I feel up to it but I would need to sit.  Apparently there are a lot of people who believe that I am incapable of sitting still for long.  Friends on my Facebook page said “Take it easy!” “Don’t overdo it” and “Behave!”  My pastor commented during Bible study that perhaps somebody should tie me to my bed.  For her benefit I posted a photo of myself in a chair with a chain wrapped around me.  Before I went out the first time I posted a photo with the chain on the floor.

I have been lucky and have not had much pain, even in the hospital.  However, I cannot believe how tired I am.  I don’t think I have ever been this tired in my life.  I wake up tired in the morning and after naps.  Simple acts like getting dressed wear me out.  I have ventured out about half a dozen times for events, a meeting, a church service and meal, errands, and my post-op appointment. Although I spent most of my time sitting when I went out, I have needed a nap when returning home.  Today my husband and I went to a large craft store for what was supposed to be a quick trip.  There was a big sale and the store was crowded.  I could not find the items I wanted.  Multiple clerks tried to help me.  As I stood in an aisle waiting, I looked around desperately for a chair—or anything I could sit on.  Nothing.  OMG, I need to sit down!  Finally a third salesclerk showed up and led me to my items.  I handed them to my husband and while he stood in line, I walked out to the car so I could sit.  Relief.  When I got home I headed to the recliner.  The other cat, Sadie, joined me, and then later Juno claimed her spot.

My husband did not have to cook for the first week I was home because friends from our church brought over food.  I have received care packages from a sister and my parents plus lots of cards and greetings on Facebook.  My husband has taken good care of me.  I ordered a stack of books from Amazon which should keep me entertained for some time.  I made sure that there were humorous books in this stack.  Today I began reading Nora Ephron’s I Feel Bad About My Neck.  After that first chapter, I got out of my recliner and went to look at my neck in the bathroom mirror.


I had thought that I would be able to catch up and do things at home that I haven’t had time to do.  I simply have not had the energy yet.  I am trying to be patient.  I am aware that I am so much better off than some other people.  In another month I’ll be almost as good as new.  I will simply have to work at getting back in shape and losing weight.  We have good medical insurance that has paid the majority of my doctor and hospital bills.  Just after my 6-week post op appointment, we will be flying across the country to join our family for Christmas.  I can’t wait to see our 1-year-old grandson and watch his reaction to our Christmas celebration.  By the beginning of 2017, I should be ready to deal with whatever the new year has to bring.







































Wednesday, November 09, 2016

How Do We Respond?

When I woke up this morning, the sun was shining—another beautiful fall day.  For a few moments I could almost hope that last night was just a bad dream.  Then my husband turned on the radio.  Hillary Clinton had conceded and Donald Trump will be our new President.

How can this be?  How did this happen?  A foul-mouthed, narcissistic, xenophobic, and totally unqualified candidate beat the most qualified candidate in the history of the United States?  What will happen to our country?

My first reaction was despair.  Do we really have that many citizens who are so hateful or so apathetic towards other people that they could vote for this man?  My heart breaks for the marginalized people in this country.  I have many friends in the LGBT community and I see their pain and fear reflected in their Facebook posts.  Other people are panicked about losing their health insurance.  What will my Muslim friends have to face?  How about refugees and other immigrants?  There is no sympathy for the homeless from Trump and his supporters.  And there is a video of Trump making fun of a disabled man.

As a woman I am bitterly disappointed that Hillary Clinton , a very qualified candidate, will not be our first woman president.  Instead we have a man who shows no respect for women; he mocks us, objectifies us, and he has even been accused of sexual assault.  The night before the election a Facebook friend added me to the “secret” group Pantsuit Nation.  Someone even started a group for Idaho women.  Women shared their stories and posted photos of themselves voting with their daughters or their mothers.  We have been through so much and have waited so long to be more than second class citizens.  Women posed in their pantsuits, a sign of solidarity not only with Hillary but with other women.  We are holding each other up.

Today I attended an event of unity for people of faith, organized by my interfaith group.  This was not easy because I underwent major surgery just 5 days ago.  However, I really wanted to be there.  This was planned weeks ago and we had hoped for a different election outcome.  We gathered in our Capitol rotunda while clergy led us with reflections, prayer, and music.  I witnessed many hugs and tears.

Is unity possible?  I don’t know.  Our nation is deeply divided.  The side promoting inclusivity lost.  It seems like the haters won.  Will they really want to work together when much of Trump’s rhetoric was about excluding people?  Hillary Clinton said we need to give him a chance to lead.  Time will tell.

For me, this is not a time to wring my hands in despair.  I will refrain from angry words and hate towards those with whom I disagree.  But I will not be silent.  I will continue to stand on the side of justice because that is where my God calls me to be.  I will work for the protection of all of God’s creation—the Earth and all living things.  I will take the hands of my gay and transgender brothers and sisters, my Muslim friends, homeless neighbors, and immigrants and I will walk with them.  I sincerely hope that these election results will inspire others to have the courage to stand up.  We must move forward together in love.  It’s the only way.